Chapter 6 - Is That Better?

 

 

 Starting off in a relationship, you're a baby as to being anywhere near comprehending the meaning of love. Then, as time progresses, you grow together and as individuals, so that hopefully when more time passes love has a greater definition in your mind. You hope that you’re still growing together and that your definitions of Loving someone coincide with one another. After growing for so long, your definition becomes so rich and powerful, you can never match a simple word as love to its hybrid complicated technological definition. After your one true love leaves, what’s next? You have grown so much and you feel as if you can not relate to anyone not having the same experiences and understanding. Is it possible to find someone that had stopped at the same point and that will pick back up where you left off, understanding each others hurt? Or do you have to start all over again? If you have to start all over again you feel as if it’s not worth it. Too much time effort and energy into something you feel will fall apart every time and that will just end up in the same predicament and pain you felt from the first one.

Maybe this perfect relationship never really existed in reality;what if it only existed in your mind or someone’s dreams. I'm afraid that reality, as we know it, is someone else's dream. When the dreamer wakes, I'll no longer exist. The hardship is when you realize it’s over and it was not anyone’s dream but reality. You will never come face to face with that feeling again, and you have nothing to turn to once its over, nothing to make you feel as you once did. I can compare it only to a shooting star. You wait your whole life for the star. When it finally comes it’s amazing and you feel happy, over joyed and so fulfilled. Once it’s gone what’s next? You will not live long enough to see it come around again, and none will ever beat or even match such spectacle. You feel as if you could never be full again. I’ve always believed “A great lover is not someone that can make love to a different woman ever night but love one woman for a life time”. What does one do, once there star is gone. Wales have one life partner and once they’re gone they are alone never seeking another mate. Are we….. Do I to hold my one cherished love in my heart forever and never seek to fill the void of her absence or do I seek replacement. Can such love ever be restored by someone else? The past can and does hurt and you have two choices you can run from it or learn from it. But in this case what is there to learn.

Are we meant to be like the whales and cherish the time we did have, not putting ourselves venerable to hurt once more? Or do we push on with false hope setting our self up for repeated failure with a downward spiral into a deep dark hole of depression. Making not only our self but everyone that tries to get close to us and the people that have always been there unhappy!

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